Meanwhile, my fibro the last few days has been rearing its ugly head in the form of fatigue and pain and the feeling like every nerve in my body is on fire. We had a busy evening Monday. First, I picked the kids up at school, then drove up to their counseling appointments, dealt with that crisis, then flew home long enough to eat dinner. Then I went to our school board meeting and stood for 2 hours and listened to our board members proceed to lie and avoid answering questions from the people they work for, the taxpayers and concerned parents. Yesterday, I paid dearly for it.
If you are reading this, please do NOT tell me the evils of psychiatric meds for kids. I have lived with him unmedicated and it is horrible. Cody is a good kid. He is smart and funny and has a tender heart. He is also autistic and ADHD, along with suffering from PTSD thanks to his abusive biological father. His mind is trapped in a cage with these animals that are just constantly attacking him. He KNOWS he is “different” from others. It is tearing him up inside. He has said he doesn’t want to live anymore. I feel so helpless and it destroys me that my child feels like this.
Please do NOT try to sell me your miracle cure product. There’s no cure for autism or ADHD nor fibro. I am not writing this post looking for someone to pitch me their product. I am just needing to vent. I am scared for our son’s psychological wellbeing and am praying that he doesn’t have a complete psychotic breakdown. We are fighting so many battles right now.